Awareness of 80% : 20%

I think a short needed to be shared of what I am figuring out about our nature as humans. I believe we are all good people, well meaning humans, have very good intentions, are honest, are considerate and giving. I also believe that we are all god/desses in essence; 100% pure energy that does not know labels, names or forms - its the pulsation of sureness and the consciousness among all living things. 

Here though I am delving into the human side of us - the psyche that is the firewall between our human and spiritual self. The self that is made of impressions. Also known as Ego / our personality / traits / habits / all things based on our perspectives or impressions, condensed to be our psyche or Ego that we use to communicate with other Egos/ personalities / characters in the field of life. 

I am giving our psyche an 80% good : 20% poor ratio for this is my take on why we humans are in a constant battle in making simple decisions like uniting as one and just being a Love-being or a God/dess every day of our lives. Why there is a constant question attached like - Why not me first? Or Why not when the I is ready? Or have a self administered compensation scheme in place to all that is unjust as if to say that, that is enough responsibility we should be taking as individuals. Just compensate in some way or another for our 20%'s and we'll be right and have been seen as being responsible. 

But I am dissecting that 20% of our nature in all of us that keeps us from being from our essential-matter self. The conscious beings. The 20% that makes us hesitate and the 20% that always sticks to us like chewing gum. The 20% that goes unidentified and shows up as our biggest crutch in making the 80% "goods" sometimes invalid. The 20% that keeps showing up religiously in some way or another. The 20% that could really free us, if examined and treated to lessen the burden on others to carry the weight of our Karma, to increase the love vibration in the world, to lessen mediocrity, to start treating global cancers like supression of thoughts, ideas and feelings.

The 20% of bads can be broken down to things like - white lies, putting the blanket over root of our negativity, forced action, inaction, turning a blind eye, compromising with what is not true for us etc. On an individual level I believe it can also be seen as pleasing the crowd / false laughs / lying / not sharing / living with identities. On a social level - the individuals do the same. On an environmental level or a global scale - these little actions or inactions rooting from the ego's mediocrity result in a wave of reactions and negativity in some form or another.

I believe the cure is - Identify what falls inside the 20% pool of the Ego. Then just consciously tell yourself you will stop and see what happens when you don't practice from this place of system. Thats all. Just stop. You may hurt at first, but just know that this is not YOU, it is the I self - the Ego hurting. Then from there, make it a point to stop making decisions from an intention residing in that 20% pool. Then one day you will see - that your actions that were a result of something that was a part of your 20% has evolved and that it does not form a basis for any other followed action of something that is not considered a truth in your life. The truth then will become from your world being a result of something you may have been doing from a forced / untrue place in the mind but now you have a clear conscience and a clean practice of what you were always capable of doing. You would then be acting from a selfless place - From a place of no agendas / hiding a truth / deception of any kind. You are also now a responsible being that does not rely on a reaction or approval to be doing the right thing for you.

I think whoever of us are reading this, know what I am talking about. I am not saying to become a puritan. And I personally don't think it is not about aiming for 100% because only in a world that had no adversities or the capitalistic world's challenges can we then live as if there were no other ego's to face. But we all have our egoic demons and as previously discussed our actions have impacts. Some we will have a direct experience of and some we will never see. But I feel we all have the power to take accountability for majority of this 20% pool of our own ego's. I believe it will actually help heal the field of life that ALL other Ego's play in.

The idea is to help heal the world by being / acting from a place where the God/dess energy resides. The God/dess energy that is the light and wants to remove further pain and suffering that already exists in our world. And this practice must start with me and you by being aware, accepting responsibility and then acting from there. 

Love and Goddess light

Another gaze at Bliss

This week I have realised that happiness is a state and true happiness can only qualify as true when we are in a state of happiness and can turn our gaze back to moments or experiences that shaped this moment's happiness. The bliss.

Oh yes! I am referring to all kinds of experiences! Including the ones that broke us down, displaced us and took us back to square one. The experiences that remoulded our perspective on a certain or any area of life. Some of those moments could have even looked like a foggy forest, that we somehow made our way out of and at the first sight of a clearing, we took our first new breath of relief. A breath of happiness. Saw the sunshine. Took ourselves back to being whole again.

So that period when we kept walking, we rebuilt our beliefs, stuck on the road to recovery and wholeness- we changed partially or maybe not. But surely felt some level of impact on our complete state here and now. We learned again to surrender and committed again to our new state of happiness. And gathered more strength for feeling high.

Today, while I am happy I am starting to practice the following:

Bringing awareness to what defined my happiness in some or key areas of life.

Asking whether it was my ability to find the way here? Yes of course the journey has shaped it.

But I am also asking have I looked at the road in its entirety? Negative.

So then I took my gaze to the road to this new state of happiness- to the actual experience/s and the actual story that was the actual seed cause of this new state I am in.

I felt it was too necessary to ask myself if I had looked and actually accepted the entire story. And if I did, what state was I in then?

I just want to raise awareness with everyone about gazing back to the STORY / STORIES that lead you here to the state of happiness/ consciousness and/or bliss. This is because you now can. You are now happy and have developed sufficient inner strength to be able to really acknowledge the TRUTH of your Happiness today. You need to give love to the whole thing, the entire experience of how you made it to the state of happiness at all times.

Reach into the abundant pool of Light and Love within you and pour it over every single part of your history of happiness today- because you deserve to be happy for it ALL. And feel the state of BLISS.

The state of true happiness / Bliss is to have embraced the sorrow alongside the joy together.

Power to you

Love & Goddess Light

Remember - You are a God/dess living and supporting a Human life

So its been several months since writing the last piece on Who is a God/dess - realising the responsibility I had beyond those of a human being. Moving from an activated space as that, I noticed my experiences had evolved into something that I had to be even wiser about. Wisdom that I now had from the realisation of how a God/dess is accountable and what my responsibilities were toward my human-being-ness. The level of absorption this time was much deeper, analysis just as deep and actions were just as hard to take in order to get the results I wanted to keep aligned and growing from thereon.

The experiences and tests I speak of are nothing out of the ordinary. No I am not referring to the metaphysical. These experiences and tests actually all appeared to be either a repetition or a development of a prelude that I had already experienced. I am talking of dealings with family, work, money, love life, health, yoga, study, friends, colleagues, acquaintances, men, women, people, relationships, animals, environment, diet, lifestyle choice etc, etc. The “NORMs” and the “Knowns”.  


So when I speak of experiences I am referring to my level of absorption of a scenario in my Norms and Knowns and when I speak of a test, it is when I found myself needing to act from a place of the wisdom I had gained from realising my God/dess state- giving each situation its merit for having re/appeared, giving me the opportunity to respond from that space I had been cultivating within. I had to. The light was too bright to turn down. The awareness heightened. It was also a matter of integrity. It still is and I realised it will always be, on this journey. The truth is greater than any other existence and once we have realised it, there is no turning back or turning a blind eye to. We are God/desses living as humans. And once realised, there is no reversing from this state from which we always feel and operate. If we don’t the results I observed manifested a tired, depleted, fearful, back-stepping, shy, insecure, irrational, selfish, ego-driven me. Yes I beat myself up for feeling fearful, tired, depleted, insecure, irrational, selfish and ego-driven. I suddenly commenced spending long deciphering these negative states (despite them making up a part of probably 20% of my Norms and Knowns) and ended up cultivating space for that state. And as we know a thought is the sole seed from which our actions develop and manifest through us into our universe. So did mine- into actions I took, that only presented themselves in the form of harder tests for me to take.


Tests are situations that represent the result of our deliberate actions. Our deliberate actions are influenced by our projections. Our projections are our thoughts. Our thoughts are created from our perspective. Our perspective is a reflection of our impression and conditioning. And our impression and conditioning are made of our experience of a situation.


And everything being connected to EVERYTHING – these situations (although only being 20% of my Norms and Knowns) started to have a ripple effect on the other 80% of my Norms and Knowns.Yes! I let it become significant. I realised in the end that is exactly what I needed to do though. Or perhaps it was my inner light that assisted and allowed me to do it - get closer to my truth. I essentially trusted in taking a step, even if an unwise one. I needed to do exactly what I needed not to do in order to identify my power. Then came the realisation that while I allowed this ego / state  to take full form, I was able to let it get close. I also experienced the light surge in, in the form of my ability to identify the ego of this dark space and its power. So the test now was much in fact simpler and not as hard as I had projected it to be. In having the ability to then go back to the actual situation / the test and seeing that it was actually an undeveloped yet an already known one that I had put myself to the test for. And instead of going at it full force I needed to approach it from a place of softness, compassion, fearlessness, lightness, security and all honesty, but also truth. This meant I had to first acknowledge - I actually had no life-wisdom / or tact for its type. I had to face my human EGO that projected this situation.


More significant was the next step – While I felt a smile appear on these realisations it came to me that the reason behind the prolonged dwelling in the mere 20% of my situation was that I had forgotten that I was a God/dess that was living a human life. That by having had a realisation of my higher being-ness I did not have a magic key to all doors to all the levels of consciousness my universe is capable of giving me. It is only by realising my state in each situation of being a God/dess, which is by being aligned to my truth, and taking steps from that space is what will be my key to the next level of experience for each test. 


So it is from that understanding, that space, that place of empowerment I am speaking today that helps me remind all of you, that while we are a God/dess, we live a human life. We must practice being compassionate, fearless, soft, vulnerable, patient, wise, careful and sensitive, in all circumstances. We must cultivate a space for our human nature to unravel and evolve. With trust in our light we can look into the eye of the darkness within. That this is also our responsibility toward ourselves. To learn OF the truth. 


This is all because we have a greater impact than what we will ever manage to see with our own eyes. But we must always remember that it is not beyond us to cultivate the ability to grow from our vulnerabilities, failures or blocks. Because we are humans. It too has a dimension of light and shade. And it needs support from the God/dess in each of us in order to evolve.


And this is how the God/desses evolves to their being-ness as humans.