04 September 2010

Prequel of the Love-(human)-Being

I spoke of the love-being in my piece this month “A noun for our embodiment” which manifested into my outlook of human-beings. Its just that at the core of our existence we are all made of pure energy that need to remember the benefits of being one with our essence; God / Goddess. If we are all living for love and the frequency of our perfect being is harmony and balance we are Love-beings.

A love-being is awake, aligned to their truth, present in the moment, feeling pure love flow through the moment’s flow of all energetic vibrations and radiating the god/dess energy bringing balance to the universe.

A Love-(human)-Being reinforcement

Tonight I am convinced once more that I love my universe and I care for it even more than I know. As with the saying “what you put in is what you get out” today I had a beautiful, direct experience of my path refining me and me confining to my path, helping me see how much love and care is really invested in it. 

My playground now is a yoga mat, a massage table, the grass in Hyde park, random encounters with soul mates, pages of my journal, my art book, philosophical conversations and dancing to the music of my incantations of what my heart desires. I listen to my heart songs every second, minute and hour of the day, whenever I wish. I love feeling my love-being and I love that I give myself permission to be a love-being.

So what happened to me earlier today?!! Why did I revert to my “drop of the ocean” / “limited” / “ego” / “human” mentality? Why did I doubt myself? Why did I feel vulnerable when he shared his thoughts of uncertainty about meeting me? Why did I attach an emotion to his personal thoughts? Why did I see his action to be a reflection of me? We have been connected for 10 years now. Though our relationship is not conventional we have a strong connection. Our feelings appear to be the same however the storyline above our feelings appear to be interpreted differently.

The truth of the matter is – The interpretations of the story differentiate due to our life paths / playgrounds being different. He leads with his empiricist view and I with my idealist’s. He is bringing his experiences to think of himself being at risk and I am thinking of re-familiarising to have the right outlook. It has been 2 and a-half years since we last met. We have a strong connection, strong enough to have developed the ability to feel each other’s pain even in the absence of one another.

The repeating thought on my mind today was –Why is he uncertain? What can I write back to his email that will make him feel certain? What else could his email mean? How can I heal him? What will it take for him to just not bring the past into our present? I got a sudden headache, ate and moped around and gradually slid down a prison like black hole of variations of the same answers... oh! Physically I was feeling my neck stiffen, head temples building tension and heart sinking out and down toward my stomach... so yucky!

Then soon enough, the stress got so unbearable that I found myself on the yoga mat. My favourite playground. I have now regained consciousness. I know now that the answer I am looking for is looking for me. In other words I don’t need to do anything he will find his answers and let me know because these questions are not mine to answer. Yoga saved me once again. In being present my energy returned back into my body, and I was able to smile again.

I started writing and drifted into reading some emails and messages waiting to find me as if till now, right at this moment when clarity had just hit me. I noticed the content of conversation that came my way, the food that I was eating then, the books that I was about to put away and most happy-fying moment was when I found another goddess was found by the Goddess awareness movement “I am a Goddess” on facebook. I felt my universe signalling loud and clear to me- all that my energy is made up of today. What makes me whole and what I was giving my energy to was causing me dis-ease. There is no need to question my love-being at all or seek any answers outside of me and my path.

Love-beings – are love, they don’t need to seek love from anything external, because that is conditional love; unlike true, pure unconditional love that a love-being creates their universe with.

03 September 2010

A noun for our Embodiment

God & Goddess are both nouns for the energy force within us. It is a bottomless reserve of powerful energy that we are born with in all of us that we can access anytime we want to. It is our programmed minds that acts as the lock without a key preventing us from accessing our true energy. However all locks can be opened, it just takes the will and hunger for wisdom behind the locked door - the key however is Awareness. Once we are aware, we can find a way in our own way to access what is beneath / within / locked within us: Gods and Goddesses.

This week my awareness has been placed on: My internal strength being represented by the sounds I make externally + Being a graceful receiver; the key to giving in everyday life.  

We all like to spectate, critique, judge and make quick decisions on how we should think, act and be toward everyone and anything happening around us. Have you once thought where those standards, decisions and thoughts come from? Is that what YOU really think? Is that what you really care about to be spending time to critique, judge, observe and make decisions that reflect only your lack of knowledge of something, being afterall just a spectator of whatever is going on?

But wait there is more to this perspective- all that you are seeing as a spectator may not be your story that you are observing but what you are seeing, have you noticed is only what you are interested in? Its like noticing only what appealed to you at that time or entertained you for that moment. Why is it that you are selective of what you are seeing? Why do you personalize it so you can have a say? And if you are saying something - do you get that you are only talking about what is relevant to yourself? Hence what you are a spectator of, critiquing, judging and making hasty decisions on is yourself in the end.

Now tying in with this week's realisations - I think the tone of our voice shows our emotional standpoint toward something/one or even ourselves of how we really do feel about it all inside us. Hearing it with our own ears, observing the comfort or discomforts in what we say and how we say things are always great indications of how we are feeling. So if the reciever is receiving a sentence like "I love you" from us, they would feel the vibe of emotions in those words as well as what the words meant and want to say it back. However it is incredibly important to ensure we stood still and received their words and feelings they gifted to us, just as well as we heard ourselves say it to them.

Currently the attention we pay to a story outside of us to find an answer for ourselves is just adding more layers to the locked door that we need to open to find our gods / goddesses. However now that Goddesses of this group think only of what is within us and not things that we are in judgement of outside ourselves, we will be working our way into turning the key a notch closer to accessing our God/ddess within.

Big Love & Awareness Light to all Goddesses